Like a star without its dreams.

Tired of messages about summer I can’t stand the sun, no more scenes to see I like the fall much better. I was in denial and now I’m just in shock and I like to see you leave but I’m just a liar and you’re just her truth waiting to see me go. “Things won’t ever be the same” you said to my convincing ears in an interesting conversation and I sunk right in. I went down to a low and I seem to have lost the strength to go, and your words brought me down to this place. To this place I can’t wake from and this nightmare I can’t seem to lose with this terrible sound I can’t seem to shake and I’m falling faster then I ever had before. I need to find a new home and I knew place where I belong because goodbye just hurts to much and begging’s scare me to the bone and I’m finding a chariot and a ride and a flight cause flying makes me feel like I can finally be free please let me know that this wont be as hard as your lips tell me. Is this the truth because that’s all I wanted was the truth, please, please tell me this is going to be right and I can let go but letting go means letting go of you and I’m not strong enough to let you go. Let me get away.  A Chariot, a ride, and a flight.

I'm loosing all I got and what I got left isn't enough to get me through the rest.

We’ve grown so much but we stayed in the same skin, in our eyes we’ll always look this way. We’ll always be the same. To be everything you will be all I think about, everything you’ve ever done right and every place we’ve gone. I’m going to think about you, just don’t forget to remember…winter days, and February’s scene. The months that we got close the different ways we went. I’m going to never forget. Soft days with cold air and smiles that came and gone, oh please don’t forget. The way I’m shaking isn’t affecting my breathing and the way I’m holding back tears won’t keep me from leaving. The way this is going is going to fast and I’m falling to fast and growing in to this new skin to slow. Leaving you all is going to be the hardest thing to get through but you know I’ll never forget you. Oh I’ll never forget. I’m losing every smile, every month, every way we laughed. Everything. Please don’t forget our year, this year, even when our ending was a mess, our year was the best.

2days.